fuck love. love is a fucking illusion. someone call me to hang out. I'm kinda scared to be alone...
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Been thinking about grandma a lot today ( Read more... )

why did you do this ( Read more... )

Yeah so i've been spending the weekend in sac. I love it here. Lyndsey is fucking awesome.(jason's gf) I'm excited to move in here. her and I are gonna fucking take over the house lol shes happy toi have a girl finally move in. I'm bringin my kitten beezy up tonight so I hope her and tyson(their pitbull) get along!:/ anyways....thats pretty much ( Read more... )

I realized today that i don't write in here much anymore. But as I was going over my old entries and remembering all the things i wrote about and being able to reflect on how I've changed and how my life has changed and how much writing about shit helped me, i realized it's something i need to start doing again ( Read more... )

yaaaa...so i guess i'm not so big on writing out my feelings anymore. It always made me feel better so i don't know why i don't do it anymore ( Read more... )

I am so fucking sick of abusive relationships.

Yet i can't seem to escape them.
one in particular...

I want to go see madeline

Yes, i'm still alive

Kinda....

she's gone...

i thought i'd have a month, but i only had 4 days with her...

she was only coherent for 2 of them.

and now the house is so empty. there's no one to greet me when i walk into the house, and the front room is cold and dark...
i don't know what we're going to do without her

When something falls apart in my life it all falls apart ( Read more... )