Okay, so little Nicole has to "grow up" supposedly. NOT HAPPENING! I don't know how ... or something? Does anyone really know how to "grow up?" I don't think so. This time next year, I will be getting ready for my senior year in high school. It's so crazy to think about. I don't even want to think about it.

Why do we try to grow up so fast? Why ( Read more... )

If I could...would I?

So this is life. A thousand roads and a thousand ways, but why am I afraid to move?

No matter how much you miss someone, it won't bring them back. Bottom line. So why do I miss them then? Why can't I just "get over it" and move on?

It seems like it should get easier. Except, right now, it seems 50 million times harder than it was to begin with. ( Read more... )

This isn't me! This isn't who I want to be. It doesn't make sense. I don't know what's going on. Everything around me is out of control. Seriously. I don't want to complain, so if you feel I am, let me know. Please. Let me know, I won't take offense to it at all.

I just feel so angry. At everything. I don't get it. I don't know if I want to let ( Read more... )

It's okay to beat myself up over this one, because, that's truly what I deserve.

Dear Nicole Gilbert,

You are a complete idiot.

End of story.

you HAVE to be kidding me...

1st hour - American Government - Mr. Peters ( Read more... )

i don't know if i can do this anymore...

I DON'T want to hide ANYMORE!!!

But it's almost a habit for me to do so.

Gosh, I know what I want to write, or rather type, but I don't. Why don't I? Because I'd just sound like everybody else? No. That's not it. Because I think I'd be complaining? No. That's not it. Because I'd be opening up to whoever reads this thing? Mmmmaybe. Not so sure if that's it either.

I don't like pretending to be happy when I'm not. It just ( Read more... )