I feel like throwing up.

Throwing up all the things I feel inside of me that I disagree with from the world.

I feel sick to the gut and it makes me just want to end it.

When will I ever accept myself, how I look, how I am and who I am as a person and love myself?

Vile vile vile

I can only cry.

Suddenly I can't open up to anyone.

I don't know how to open up to anyone.

I don't like how I am becoming, just so I can survive. I hate it ( Read more... )

Back in 2011, I wrote,

"Sometimes you got to smile and walk away, hold your tears in, and pretend you’re okay."And today, this still resonates with me. How long more do I have to hold it back, how long more do I have to pretend that I am okay, and how long more do I have to keep smiling when that is not how I truly feel ( Read more... )

My heart almost dropped 40 minutes ago when I was not able to login because my password was outdated and I had to reset it. The problem was, the email I used to create this account was more than a decade ago and it no longer function anymore so I tried all ways and the best of my memory to retrieve that old email account back and THANK GOD!!! I ( Read more... )

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I want someone who can coax and humour me when I feel upset ( Read more... )

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Suppressing it all down

Wanting to share
Wanting to let just one to listen

Yet not wanting to weigh down nor drain out anyone

All at the same time