I'm there. I can't go on like this. I'm tired of being tired. There's nothing I can do. I've tried to be better, make changes. All that happens is that a seemingly outside force takes be back to square one ( Read more... )

I hate living. I try so hard to better myself and end up with more nothing than I thought possible... and crying in the middle of the night ( Read more... )

I look at you and see tommorrow ( Read more... )

I hate pretending to be normal. But if I don't pretend... people stare and I just get annoyed. I thought holidays were supposed to be joyful. I have no one to share it with tho.

I envy the happiness of those around me. I am coveting that happiness.

First you must surrender to it. Then you must manipulate it to your needs.

I'm sitting in my room. On my computer.

Simple pleasures of life that I took for granted till I had nothing but a bag of clothes and a cell phone and the shoes on my feet.

There is a big thanks to everyone to helped me live and an even bigger fuck you to the rest.

FIN

I really could be worse off. I still have both legs but somehow... I kinda expected the shit hitting the fan to suck more than this. I'm grateful for somewhere indoors to sleep at night and food and the internet.

I wish I had more good friends and booze. but not all greedy like.

It'd be nice if this was my year. These past few years have really been about someone or something else and it blows fucking balls ( Read more... )

I'm broke and staying on somebody's couch. Well, I have some money but I think it'll go to work clothes, new shoes, and my phone bill.

Life fucking sucks.

... did i mention that people suck

except for some...

It seems that I attract nothing but drama. My girlfriend proved to be a manipulative, lying, busybody. I knew that she would eventually stiff me on the rent... I get laid off three weeks before christmas and find out that she felt it was a great time to break lease ( Read more... )

Is dying an option?

Like, is that acceptable? Can we do that?

I'm sick to my stomach with failure and grief.