carma could quite possibly be taking it's toll on me... i think i've had the worst week since i left davis. i guess it hasn't been all THAT bad, but i'm REALLY irritated with myself right now. first of all, i should have never moved into that fucking house... second of all, i should have moved out of that fucking house earlier... third of all, i've ( Read more... )

sooo, in the past week i've talked to both clint and matt... and it wasn't that i contacted them... it's weird... clint applogized for completely losing contact with me... and i think he's saying this now because he probably broke up with his girlfriend... and matt... well, we had a surprisingly nice conversation, too. i feel like this is fate ( Read more... )

new pics on
flickr.com/photos/mei-ling

so i would generally write this on myspace, but apparently the blog section is not working right now (can't read nor write blogs). SO, i've gotta let it all out on lj. ok... get this... my friends with boyfriends SUCK! you guys suck. well, maybe not all of you... but... definately a lot of you do... and what's rediculous is that you're not even on ( Read more... )

i'm at the library at UNR and i'm getting very tired. upon paggar and barbarella's disappearance, i've decided to completely free myself from anything that keeps me tied down to staying in one location... except for my jobs. i've decided to sell the majority of my belongings and to live out of a truck (which has not yet been purchased) when i'm not ( Read more... )

i'm back at home and brought some internationals with me... bob and ville are here and are heading off to TJ for a day or so... i need to drop them off at the greyhound station in hollywood tomorrow morning. *sigh* i'm SO damn tired right now. i've had a physically difficult week and haven't selpt well in weeks. for some reason i woke up like 8 ( Read more... )

1) i come home to an empty unlocked house. the TV and stereo is on. the funiture is moved around in an unorderly fashion. the dishes are procariously piled. there's shit everywhere... so i go to my room ( Read more... )

sooo, i'm back on the west coast (namely in so-cal) and i managed to survive the trip to florida without getting motion sick ( Read more... )

i've been thinking a lot lately... unfortunately, and have not come to any conclusions... but i HAVE wanted to act out on impulse... mainly to step forward and appologise. the problem that i'm having, though, is IF i do, in fact, appologise what good will it do? and will the other party even care? i really don't know ( Read more... )

Ever since I had the world’s best salad last night I’ve been on top of the world!!! I awoke to find Barbarella sleeping at the foot of my bed, and I thought to myself: “my kids are so beautiful… my life is so awesome… I love where I am right now. “ after that, I sat up in bed and woke her up with some petting (she’s actually sleeping next to me on ( Read more... )