ive been very "shut off", locked behind closed doors for the most recent "chapter" of my life-

He has put the finishing touches on it- the next chapter has begun.

but for those who choose, or have the slightest interest....here is ure key to the chapter i was locked behind-

->livejournal
"search"

gabriel_phoenix

as always, my words are not what i wanted them to be..but here is my best attempt-

Here i am, 36 pages later and im saying my last goodbye's! It has been such an interesting chapter of my life. The best one yet, but the ending was so intense, hard, painful and well i dont know...terribly sucky?

i will miss u all so dearly. just reading through my ( Read more... )

MORE FUEL FOR THE FIRE!


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" i close my eyes just to look at you"

"you -truly- are the first to crack my code"

i asked for you to show me something more real than i've ever experienced!!!

YOu, as always, were more than faithful!

Words can not express the fulfillment of this day.

I can't explain it, but it is more real than anything i have ever known!


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i want to tell.....
maybe next year...
i believe it is destiny....
only time will tell.....
i want to trust.....
but i fear the worst...
i believe in destiny....
in time i will see...
the perfect plan will come to pass...
eyes will open....
i believe in destiny....

(this should be interesting)

well...here it is...perhaps my most profound entry to date...is it b/c ive reached a new height of enlightenment...is b/c i have come to a new life view...perhaps it is all of the above, perhaps it is b/c i now longer "care"....but to b completely honest, i havnt been honest...ive always "claimed" to b uncencored, but i havnt been, b/c i knew some1 ( Read more... )

i am...at this VERY moment getting my leg inked up!!!! shane is behind me...we're listening to the greece soundtrack and stuart is, as always, giving me some great laughs!!!! i love this one! its so cool- my first original tatoo!! thanks for making the trip w/ me stuart...thanks shane for the inc! thanks nonstop art for AMAZING work!!!!! ( Read more... )

and now the true test of friendship comes......

To believe lies or not to believe.....

*END*

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Experiencing the warmth....
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