I'm getting married, in 2 months. Weird.

3rd time this year. Going to surprise my mom for her bday. That and to get my head figured out. I need to touch base with my peeps. Well, with my home, with my core ( Read more... )

So my dad's going in for surgery on the 13th. I'm coming home for 5 days to help drive him to and from Ottawa and be there with my mom. And I don't have to ruin my vacation in July. I was planning on taking the full two weeks off, even though we were only spending 10 days in Ontario.... so instead I'll just go back to work the day after we get ( Read more... )

Is so overwhelming. I should be home. I should be helping my mom get through this. I should be there to shoulder the burden for my dad. He shouldn't have to worry about the rest of the family while he is trying to recover. He can't fucking talk right for fucks sake! He's had a stroke and I should be there. And I'm not. And he wouldn't want ( Read more... )

A - Age: 28 and a half ( Read more... )

Sometimes I come here to rant, to vent, to let go. It's pretty much the only place I do so any more b/c there are very few people who read this. And I don't enjoy being the drama queen that I used to be. Although every once in awhile I need to just get thoughts off my brain without actually telling anyone. I feel like I need to be sad lately. ( Read more... )

So I think summer is pretty much over here in Cold Lake Alberta. The sun no longer rises at 4 am, and actually sets before midnight. Starting to get chilly. Definitely not sandles weather any more ( Read more... )

I've never felt so stressed over the idea of quitting my job. Its keeping me up! I just feel guilty that someone took a chance on me .... like I'm failing them. But I'm not cut out for the car selling biz. I don't think I should feel guilty about it... but I do. I'm very stressed. Its upsetting. I'm tired and I just want to sleep but I'm ( Read more... )

I'm scared to fall asleep. Scared to wake up. Last night I dreamt that my brother killed himself, I woke up crying. Tonight I stress about what needs to be done at work tomorrow. Most nights I fall asleep thinking about what needs to be done at work tomorrow ( Read more... )

its interesting how some people just eventually get on your nerves. Everything they say is just, annoying. And at one point I genuinely thought they were amusing and witty, and enjoyed talking to them. Now I just want to argue with them. And don't want to hear their opinion about anything. I don't understand when this happened. There was no ( Read more... )