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[cherrystone]

i don't know if i should continue with this journal. it's starting to seem more and more pointless, and at this point the main appeal is its ability to procure me compliments and distract me from the less glamorous aspects of the publishing field. but i don't like the person it makes me seem to be, and i don't feel so desperate for attention like i

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[anonymous]

I know exactly how you feel. That's partly why I originally stopped posting here. But after a long break, and some major developments in my life, I felt compelled to come back and post about some of them. I think I'm going to post much more rarely, but I'm going to keep posting now that I've returned.

[cherrystone]

i just wonder how much is productive/expressive/worthwhile and how much is just my shallow narcissism. years ago when i got lured into this i think it was helpful to put myself out there more... i was pretty crazy at times and typing all my thoughts out helped me seperate the free spiritedness from the absurd self-destruction. but now i don't feel that way - the last few years have been fairly life-changing - and i just get frustrated when i read back and see stupid posts about my hair, my dates, my job woes... eh. i've been feeling a lot more exposed recently, and all for the parts of me that don't actually matter, and this journal is just no longer helping.

but i would like to read, if you let me know who you are...

[cold_cold_water]

dude, i feel like *i* could have written the above comment..freaky. for what it's worth, i enjoy your journal. would you keep the myspace one?

i've been thinking about experimenting more with the public "blog" format like commenting on articles i read and shit like that. have you thought of doing something like that?

[cherrystone]

i think in time i will... i've been kind of living under a rock for a while so at the moment my comments would be fairly naive. :) but hey, maybe we could team up on some future project. i've got design and marketing covered, lady, and you know i'm pro-choice.

but yeah myspace is a nice shallow distraction that takes less of an investment and has led to actually getting to know some very cool people. plus i like excuses to publish silly photos. i would never post anything huge and private on there (and really i shouldn't on here either, but i've been pretty good about keeping the heavy stuff friends-only) but hey, i like validation and socializing just as much as the next person. probably more.

and i enjoy your journal as well. in fact, i enjoy you in real life. i'm going to go im you and make you hang out with me... you have no choice!

[cutebunnygirl]

in a word - yes.

Ill misss you and your journal - keep in touch.

[cherrystone]

always! sorry i've been lame about making lunch plans... kind of oversocialized these days... but i'm going to e-mail you in a few and let's figure something out.

Yes.

[haya]

I frequently feel that way.
I also often don't want to write in my journal because I am unhappy and I don't want to seem like i am that way all the time.

I will miss you too. I've enjoyed your photos and posts.

Re: Yes.

[cherrystone]

aw thanks. i'm not going to lie, there may be a new one at some point. but i'm finding myself posting for the express purpose of having certain people read things, and that just seems rather ridiculous. the less passive agressive i can be, the better.

...and i think we all make an assumption here that unhappy posts do not = unhappy people. the whole point of livejournal is to bitch & moan, in whatever form that may take. :)

[amber911]

I never feel involved in my life, generally things happen and it's not until afterwards that I realise that I was involved. Wow that sounds backwards.

I'd miss you if you left LJ but I guess you gotta do what's best for you. If you go on hiatus I'll see you when you get back. If you leave altogether, I'll miss you. *hugz* x

[cherrystone]

i just feel like i'm spinning out of control, and this journal frustrates me because i don't like the record i'm keeping. i'm glad you understand, and i'll be around. :)