Thoughts on friendship "Your optimistic eyes seem like paradise to someone like me"

[chaoticheaven]

I have many friends from different backgrounds.. But recently its come to me to ponder what is a friend truly ? When the chips are down and your world is falling apart do they stand by you ? or let you fall by the wayside? What if it's someone whom you thought of as a best friend, but in hindsite realize they only wanted your attention when it

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Re: everyone is getting tested lately....

[chaoticheaven]

thanx for the encouraging words. it is nice to know that other people relate and understand and i think you are a right a lot of the disapointment lies in yourself for trusting and believing in somone and then they let you down and ultimately you let yourself down i know i am feeling a lot of that lately i had to see my ex roomate this past weekend we both acted as if the other did not exsist there was still this part of me that wanted to go up to her and say hello and talk to her but i dont dare let myself fall into her trap again i know what kind of person she is i half expected her to come up to me and apologize because in my mind that is what needs to be done even tho truthfully i know she would never admit it that she was ever in the wrong she just is not that kind of person she only serves herself and which is what i am realizing about the loss of this long time best friend whome i wrote about .l ackk sorry i could just go on and on these subjects we really do need to hang out tho after this weekend i should have some hang time

The rocks, speak to them they know.

[anonymous]

Well, on freindship....I supose one can never really put full trust in anyone, in doing so you put limitations and restrictions on that person because you make expectations on how they should be. I'm not trying to say be pesimissic about it but at least that way when they do pull through for you it's always a peasent surprise. Be Strong, self sustaining, then grow alone in the crowd of people. Be not like them, the masses who are sorrow. Deem not too eagerly to catch the promises;fear not......but I digress. In the end depend only on thine self to feel good, to make things happen to go here or there in life. Be as a beackon, your light shining forth into the darkness of space. Just let your friend s be themselves and you be you and don't may any expectations from them without it in writering first :D Latter

Re: The rocks, speak to them they know.

[chaoticheaven]

I know what you mean about having expectations and then being disapointed by them .. this was just more of a free form vent i guess.... so do i know you ?you didnt sign a name. I do agree with what you said most definetly and those are words i myself have used many times to talk to others sometimes its really hard to take one's own advice. I am growing up in my own way alone in the crowd it just gets so hard sometimes, the older i get the more i feel that lonlieness at times. If you want you can e-mail me directly at ChaoticHeaven@yahoo.com ... you have some good advice, very reflective.

Also the flowers and the trees they speak as well. Listen!

[anonymous]

You know you will always be alone. Nothing wrong with that. The problem is getting all the brainwashed preset thoughts out of your head of how things should be or how you understand it to be from being taught that in your youth. Evolve, grow strong kill your heart if you have to. What I mean from that last part is gain volition over your emotions, stop being like a slave to your own vices.I can tell from your writings that you may someday take full advantage of your potential. Stop think about it so much and do more to fix the problem. Most people will comlpain till they turn blue in the face and take all the time in the world, when it would but take a short fraction of that time to fix the wrong.As for whether you know me. I would say No. You do not. It wouldn't mater if you truly did or not. I would still tell you the same thing you may only think of it differrntly if you did. So, remember it's not so bad to be alone so much as you surround yourself with the proper environment . Perhaps i will once again write to you in the future

Re: Also the flowers and the trees they speak as well. Listen!

[chaoticheaven]

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law ,
Thank you for your advise these are things i know well myself but sometimes when the ordeals are so close to you they become blind. I know a lot of what I am going through is also the way of growing up learning to handle things and gain the voliation over emotion and to kill ones heart and not toy with old sweetness ( much easier said than done !!) I look forward to hearing from you again sometime

Love is the Law , love under will
Nephthys