1) It's taking over my life.  I don't HAVE a life anymore.  I have time that I spend sleeping (limited), and time that I spend in the hospital, and maybe two to three hours that are mine for the day.  For some reason, three hours to do errands, cook food, eat food, see the boyfriend, relax, read news, and take a bath seems much shorter than three ( Read more... )

Have just (3.5 hrs ago) begun my surgery rotation, and good lord am I very overwhelmed.  I do not think I will enjoy this experience at all, although I am trying to keep an open mind and be optimistic ( Read more... )

Really surpisingly awake for this time of the night.  Usually by now I am exhausted and beginning to plan going to bed.  I wonder if it was going to the gym today at 5:30 (after a LONG gym-less hiatus) that has made me so perky?

So, today I studied for 7.5 hours, and if this is what I am supposed to be doing every day before the boards (and I am ( Read more... )

Hello, world!

I am still here.  I did my pharm final, which was a horrible nightmare.  I haven't gotten the grade for it yet, but somehow I don't think it's one that I will wish to record for posterity.  Sadly, because I had been doing relatively well in pharm, everyone (my parents) continues to ask, "Did you get your pharm grade yet?"  People!   ( Read more... )

I Am Losing It ( Read more... )

Yes, see above.  Because when I am old and gray and reading these entries in order to tell my grandchildren about what life was like in the 2000s, I will probably remember that time when A was sick, and I won't necessarily remember that time I studied so hard for my pharm final.

About A:  She is out of the hospital as of today.  She'll go the ( Read more... )

A-watching update: She's still in the psych hospital, looking at discharge tomorrow or Wednesday.  She's on a medication that seems to be working well at calming everything down.  I don't think that the medicine will cure anything necessarily, but what it needs to do is make her safe enough and stable enough and lift her mood enough for her to be ( Read more... )

So, let us update about my sister first.  I talked to her yesterday.  She seemed very sad, a little tearful, "hates it" at the hospital, wants to be home.  Although I know that I am trying very hard to see hope in this situation, I do legitimately wonder if it's not a step forward to just admit that she's sad instead of spending all of her time and ( Read more... )

A victory for the forces of good today.  My parents went to court for their hearing.  As we had thought, it was the school who called CPS on A, and the school social worker and the principal were there to testify against my parents.  My mother was appalled.  I haven't gotten the full details yet, but she said, "If I was the person that they ( Read more... )

Thanks for all the nice comments.  I am usually somewhat self-contained, but in the past few days I have just been going anywhere and everywhere for support.  I hug the cat brothers a lot ( Read more... )