I havent updated this in forever...tons to say but i dont know where to start ( Read more... )

"Sober"

I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning
'Cos I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home

Aahh the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oohh, I am finding
That's not the way I want my story to end

I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can ( Read more... )

does everything have to go & fuck up?

why can't i trust people?
Oh that's right... cuz when you tell someone somethin they go right behind your back & tell someone else.
i dont know who to trust or even who my true friends are anymore...

There is WAY too much drama that shouldn't even be there. i don't even know anymore...
Honestly, i cant wait till i ( Read more... )

why does life have to go & fuck up?

i quit talkin to Jeremy

I got a job at hardees

I have an amazing boyfriend =)

Theres always too much drama

I am a Junior =/

ive lost friends & have learned who i can trust

I have made mistakes

idk i guess i just needed to do this so maybe ill do it again later im gonna go take a shower & get to bed

 does this keep happening to me? stuff like this makes me wonder y im even still living when NOTHING is going my way. just when i thought things might actually work out you learn that everything was all a lie.

I wonder where i would be without the friends i have today? i wonder if i would even be here...i doubt it. ive screwed up with so many people ( Read more... )

why do i chance things that could screw everything up for me?? what the hell...i fuck a lot of things up..especially lately. i dont regret anything i did but i have made some mistakes.

Mistakes ive made since the beginning of the year

I've made out with 3 other guys that had g/fs at the time.

why the hell did i do that?!

I've cut myself off from ( Read more... )

i am really not caring about things anymore. Since school went out I kicked the summer off right!!!!! haha ive made a couple of new friends... Kala & her brother Jeremy. Kala didnt like me too well at first. i met Jeremy when they came to get Kala to go to ther moms. Me, Stephanie, Kala, Jeremy, Blake, Corey, Chad, Stevie, & Joel. went to the fair ( Read more... )

I have realized that i miss having someone in my life to make me EXTREMELY happy. I wish i could have that again. shew idk wat to do. somethin tells me to move on but then again maybe i dont want to. this sux, makin decisions suck, especially the ones that could change ur life a LOT!!! i hope watever i do decide that it wont be the wrong decision. ( Read more... )

i need to be happy again. i think i have forgotten how now :(

I am tryin hard to be strong & not rely on ppl to cheer me up but i cant really do that. i love my friends...they keep me alive.

I miss how everythign used to be & how simple things were.

I still love him no matter what happens & i would always be here for him even if we werent talkin or ( Read more... )

I really dont know what to think anymore. Everything has changed so much & i dont like it. maybe its for the better but i dont know what i should do or how to handle it. Life just sucks now. why cant things be any different or easier? why does everything have to be so hard & difficult especially with decisions. i would say no one knows wat im ( Read more... )