haha it's so funny go through this thing. i guess i came in here only to vent or to write passing thoughts when I felt extremely overwhelmed, because it doesn't seem to match how i talked most of the time or acted or thought of things ( Read more... )

im craving a loving hug from a lovely guy
i miss having someone just to talk about whatever, call whenever, and hold whenever.

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so my mom is crying which im not use to. then i think about it and how lonely she probably feels, then i feel bad. but the way she thinks about certain things causes her to also feel other negative feelings. that's when you got to let your ego or pride in, when you want to be truly nice and give advice, it's not about being scared if the other ( Read more... )

does it ever bother you when you eat meat, which i still do at times, the stench, the texture, how similar it is to humans.
and it just goes to waste since they are helpless.
like einstein said he believed that there would be a drastic change in the violence of the human kind if we first started to end the slaughtering of other animals.

so you know that story about in France at the orphanage the babies were mysteriously dying, and it turned out they were getting enough attention. so the keepers started to hold them.

we still die a bit inside if we don't have affection for long enough.

ive been looking up scholarships ( Read more... )

so my dreams seem to affect me as i wake up, the more complicated the dreams, the more cloudy and distracted i become.
so somehow ima change my dream by changing what i do or think of during the day and see if it works.

anywho does anyone have a camcorder i can borrow, so some c class movies can be made?

lets make a club!
turn this spare time into something extravagant.
someone go running with me into the sunrise.
i'll stop before it sounds like im trying to write a poem

sooo my mind lately has been feeling like its blocked ( Read more... )