Here I am Back In control, Not Exactly Happy, But not spending every day trying to put myself out of my mizery, im growing my hair back and slowly becoming who i was before i met that soul sucking cunt of an ex six years ago. the person i was when everyone i know met me. I was happy, i was different, friendlier but more outspoken. im almot over it ( Read more... )

ehhh, had the doctor eff me up. surgery sucks. bah.feelin beter today. yup.

Well here i am again, i forgot that i had this journal, but every now and then i make my way to it. But anyways. i needed a place to vent. So ONCE again, stephanie and I are Broken up, and as usual i Took it real hard, mainly because we have been together for six years, and have a beautiful 3 year old. well mostly because of my beautiful daughter ( Read more... )

Means nothing i guess. yeah so she broke up with me,after about 5 years. this time its permanent. she gave back her ring and everything. i only wish she would understand how much i love her. im with my daughter samara today, all day. and its awesome, she is the only thing more important than steph. samara is the only reason i keep going in life.its ( Read more... )

so today i really did it, i realised how much i actually love stephanie,she gave birth to my daughter and i want to marry that girl. its funny because we had a pretty big fight and i have been very unreasonable lately. but its only little stuff. we have been together roughly five years, and things have gotten much better for us recently, until last ( Read more... )

devlyn sydus(my band) will be playing the worcester palladium, once again on may 12. just confirmed today!!

Iforgot to mention that if you contact me you can get a free copy of "DEVLYN SYDUS_the best of the demos" featuring our palladium performance demo, and our other favorite demos all on one disk, including sugarfree hate, and deceptive eyes."


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well it certainly is interesting, Myband had a chance to play with cradle of filth offered to us for march third in new york by a promotion company working mith juliya(former uranium hostess), but I declined because I dont know how the hell we would get out there, all of our cars suck , and there is no way in hell the tour van is getting out there ( Read more... )

so, my throat really hurts, i did drugs friday , and drank saturday, all night, i got out of werk went and partied with eddie, billy, scoopy, john,some girl courtney, ellen, ummmm, uggy friend, some retarded state trooper who likes to drink with minors, steve, stowell, and i think i saw shareen.then earlier tonight i practiced with the band, we ( Read more... )

So my bands show went awesome, we fucked up alot, but noone noticed, and i was fucking hammered anyways i have been working alot and my old job called me back i start monday.