All things lost, nothing gained
Every passing day intensifies my pain
I look towards tomorrow
Yet cling to yesterday
Hoping someday I'll find my way

Each day a reminder of my mistakes
Each day a reminder of what it takes
Nothing to look forward to from what I can see
The old days ended too soon for me

I had a real nostalgic morning and I'm completely overwhelmed with the continued feeling of never being good enough, or amounting to anything. Every dream or goal I've ever had, I've walked away from. Today's going to be a long day.

Sometimes its really hard to be the gentleman I know I am. Learning to give space when space is needed.. and when to talk things out. I know I'm doing better... still frustrating and worrisome. =/

First day that I've felt homesick since I've moved to Long Beach. =/

Still totally in love with my girlfriend and happy, but I guess everyone gets these types of blues sometimes.

Been frustrated as hell the past couple of days, and I'm trying my hardest to hide it. Don't know why I'm even in the situation where we can't talk about things...

Really happy with life ( Read more... )

"When I meet a special girl, she always lives somewhere else in the world. Don't want to call her on the phone. I want to talk to her when I'm at home."

Farewell heartless world,
I'll send you a postcard burnt in flames
You've tried so hard to extinguish with the fear of failing,
I'll write down everything I have learned,
And edit it down to a single word "Love"
For you I'm waiting, anticipating

A month later.. and I still can't shake these thoughts ( Read more... )

I really have to get my shit together.

The days not over yet.