i want a moment to be real.

[catsmith]

so i got that job that i applied for and everything which is pretty cool, i need to start saving up the money. i was supposed to start this week but i guess getting background checks done took a little longer then expected so kim and i start tuesday of next week. the hours are kinda blah for the first week but it's training so there's not much you

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you got me babe.

[litljenn10]

hey I know how you feel sometimes and it does suck. BUT- dont for one minute think that Im not there for you. To hear you out, talk things over. for ANYTHING- shit even Matt said he will always be there for you to help you out or ANYTHING. An you know that. right? well know this. We love you and will always be here for you no matter what.
i love ya sis.

Re: you got me babe.

[catsmith]

haha that was just too cute jenn, thank you! and i know you guys are there for me it's just nice to be reminded of it every now and then. i seriously feel closer to you then i have since a little before ben was born, i'm just glad things are finally starting to become routine with ya. like getting to talk to you at least once a day! ha. but thank ya big sis!

[veiledpaperdoll]

you are a strong amazing woman. it's tough when life forces us to tread water on our own for a while... but i promise you that you will grow and life will swell and joy will remain, even if happiness comes and goes, which it will

[catsmith]

well i think it's pretty clear that you're a writer ha. that was just so overwhelmingly helpful and pretty all at the same time! i should save it and resort back to it whenever i'm having another one of those 'moments.' where were you before? i could have definitely used your words of wisdom a long time ago haha.

i think a part of the problem lies in that i'm always trying to help out other people rather than deal with my own problems. so when i finally come around to them they just kind of explode in my face. but i'm starting to see the benefits of giving love away, you may not get it back all the time, but when you do it makes you feel perfectly complete.

all those years of teenage adjustments haven't fully prepared me for what i see as the 'real adult world' so i'm just confused on so many different things. i'm coping though. at least trying to.

[nologox]

Well done on getting the job.... so is the money saving still for your trip to England?

I have found through my years, that you need to feel comfortable with yourself first before thinking about other people... but I know what you mean about feeling like that everyone else is getting the support apart from yourself. But this is where things like livejournal can help - I wish something like this, a means to communicate with people you would never met in real life, was there when I was younger and unsure about life. But I have managed to find a path through life, and I am still going along it....

And as Monty Python once sang
Always Look on the Bright Side of Life

And as D:REAM once sang
Things can only get better