i want a moment to be real.

[catsmith]

so i got that job that i applied for and everything which is pretty cool, i need to start saving up the money. i was supposed to start this week but i guess getting background checks done took a little longer then expected so kim and i start tuesday of next week. the hours are kinda blah for the first week but it's training so there's not much you

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[veiledpaperdoll]

you are a strong amazing woman. it's tough when life forces us to tread water on our own for a while... but i promise you that you will grow and life will swell and joy will remain, even if happiness comes and goes, which it will.

fill the void with service. when you feel lonely, when you are convinced you are shallow, useless and worthless, do something good for somebody else. donate. volunteer. write a thank you letter. give of your time, your heart, your love. it will get you through the hard times, dollface, and you'll be a better person for it. you will realize that life, indeed can be a lot worse, and you are ten times more lucky and more spiffy than you thought you were.

take time to honor yourself. honor your family. honor the generations of people who have lived through the ages, these people are your ancestors. take pride in knowing that while your life is tough, someone in your family line had a tougher life, a tougher time. they made it through, and ultimately, that's how you graced us all with your presence! honor their commitment. have pride in them and the struggles and triumphs you will find in your family line. those very triumphs are within you.

i know you will get past this, and i know you will grow.

breathe deep, honey, and relax! living is the fun part!

[catsmith]

well i think it's pretty clear that you're a writer ha. that was just so overwhelmingly helpful and pretty all at the same time! i should save it and resort back to it whenever i'm having another one of those 'moments.' where were you before? i could have definitely used your words of wisdom a long time ago haha.

i think a part of the problem lies in that i'm always trying to help out other people rather than deal with my own problems. so when i finally come around to them they just kind of explode in my face. but i'm starting to see the benefits of giving love away, you may not get it back all the time, but when you do it makes you feel perfectly complete.

all those years of teenage adjustments haven't fully prepared me for what i see as the 'real adult world' so i'm just confused on so many different things. i'm coping though. at least trying to.