just when I thought I had it all figured out, here I am again all lost. Last night was the worst. I felt so alone. Andrew visited at work because he had no power and my boss got mad about it but once I explained she understood I thought, but it's just another thing for me to be stressed about. I got out of work and headed to sonnys with Krys and ( Read more... )

I love you. And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we're great friends. And not in a misplaced affection, puppy-dog way, although I'm sure that's what you'll call it. I love you. Very, very simple, very truly. You are the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being. And I know that you think of me as just a friend ( Read more... )

making my journal private now. add me/comment here if you already haven't to keep learning about my not so interesting life.

celtics are about to win the finals. worst team goes to the first. fuck yes.

i want to run through the streets of boston crying with joy while flipping a car.

I think if I could just grow an inch or 5, I'd be a lot happier. I'm coping with how we put Becca down real weirdly. I cry randomly and it's always when I'm driving. It sucks. I don't like that she's not here when I come home late at night. I don't like that there's not little black dog hairs all over my clothes fresh out of the dryer. And I really ( Read more... )

I already can't stop crying.

So, looks like tomorrow we're putting my dog down. The past few days we've had to hand-feed her grilled chicken, hamburger and rice and actually spoon-feed her yogurt. She's so old. I've had her since I was 3 years old. She's always been there. I already cried just looking at her today. I haven't decided if I'm going to go when they put her down. I ( Read more... )

hello, semi big post.

( i wanted to do it under a cut. )

I can't live in this house anymore. I can't handle my mom just coming into my room whenever she wants. I need to live on my own. I asked her if I could move in with Mike for the summer and she said absolutely not. Who is she to tell me what to do when I'm an adult now. I'm 18 years old and I want to start living like one. I don't what the problem ( Read more... )

We had marching practice today, my class is full of dumbasses. They set us up with height and a boy and a girl. I'm marching with Eric Donilon, we totally rigged it and I'm so happy. I wanted to write "Hi Noni!" on my cap but I guess since we're an 'academy', I can't. If I did, they wouldn't let me march. So gay. I can't wait to leave. My last day ( Read more... )