Comments | cal_sitter: 177 Near Disasters

cal_sitter

177 Near Disasters

Apr 04, 2009 14:44

Some nights I can't sleep. There isn't a single night that I want to. When I sleep, I forget. Each morning the blood is on my hands again, and I know I failed. This time there's no free pass. I keep breaking my promise. As hard as I try, it is never going to be enough ( Read more... )

my emo is becoming destructive, handle with care, curse, here there be monsters, not to be left alone, not sleeping, hero complex, no inner monologue curse, holding back for others' safety, plays with sharp objects, delilah, affected and fighting it, i'm no superman

Comments 190

halfed April 4 2009, 18:56:52 UTC

[standing in the doorway, gun out, but lowered now he's realised the cause of the sound]

Any use?

cal_sitter April 4 2009, 19:00:45 UTC

[Glaring at what used to be the keyboard.]

Not in this place. We can't keep it a secret anymore.

halfed April 4 2009, 19:03:47 UTC

You mean we could before?

[he hasn't read the post yet. Cal puts the gun away and heads over to prod the remains of the computer with his foot]

Don't tell me it tried to attack you?

cal_sitter April 4 2009, 19:06:59 UTC

It made it easier for the curse to work. Made it easier to tell the whole damn City that I can't save you.

Thread 23

shutupsammy April 4 2009, 19:11:23 UTC

[ here is the long pause of consideration. sharp ears could hear dean's jaw clicking. ]

A promise is like a rollercoaster track, Nik. It's gotta bend to take the pressure. If it doesn't bend, it'll break. So you can't blame yourself for it.

voice; cal_sitter April 4 2009, 19:17:34 UTC

I can blame her. I can tear her into pieces. It's still not enough.

voice; shutupsammy April 4 2009, 19:23:27 UTC

It's--

[another long pause and the sound of the muzzle of a gun being set down on a cheap table.]

Once a day every day isn't enough. That's the problem. There is no forgive and forget. There's forget and forgive by definition of forgetting.

voice; cal_sitter April 4 2009, 19:33:03 UTC

Forget? Not this. Not what I saw. Not what she made me believe.

[Now silence from Niko as he tries not to say everything that crosses his mind. Maybe putting his fist through the wall will help. The City doesn't give him a chance to try.]

My mother handed Cal to me as soon as she cut the cord. She didn't even bother to clean him. The only thing that's ever mattered is keeping my promises to him.

Thread 58

blackeyedskank April 4 2009, 20:07:42 UTC

It doesn't change it, especially if it's not the blood you're looking for.

cal_sitter April 4 2009, 20:16:06 UTC

I want Cherish dead.

blackeyedskank April 4 2009, 20:34:48 UTC

And I want a pony. Sometimes we can't get what we want just like that.

[ooc: I have to work ;_; will tag back later. ♥]

cal_sitter April 4 2009, 20:37:00 UTC

It doesn't matter. I can't reach her here.

[ooc: ♥]

Thread 22

reginagloriae April 4 2009, 20:40:22 UTC

The blood on your hands, Leandros? You might need time.

cal_sitter April 4 2009, 20:42:24 UTC

Time allows bloodied wounds to fester.

reginagloriae April 4 2009, 20:54:39 UTC

You might need time and treatment to patch them up, then.

Do you need to hunt?

cal_sitter April 4 2009, 21:07:39 UTC

The alternative is to waste away.

Thread 11

thesecondslayer April 4 2009, 22:17:53 UTC

...

That's some heavy shit there, Niko. You sure you wanna be using the Network today?

cal_sitter April 4 2009, 22:58:15 UTC

What do you think?

It shouldn't be anyone else's problem.

thesecondslayer April 4 2009, 23:04:34 UTC

I think I'm not gonna ask.

You should go kick some ass. Get some ass kicked.

cal_sitter April 4 2009, 23:07:41 UTC

Which one are you suggesting that I need more? I tend to cause more damage than I'm given.

Thread 35