I need a perspective change.
I feel like I'm just...not...cool...and, simultaneously, like I'm too old to worry about "being cool".
I do feel old.
I should have a better work ethic...so I can make more money.
I've got to kill the fear.
I need exercise.
And to see a few sunrises every now and then, and not because I stay up late...I want to get up early.

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A bunch of zombies came to our neighborhood and were trying to go to my next door neighbors' party while their mom was out of town. I warned them that they didn't want these guys at their party, because they were zombies...so the zombies started toward my parents' house. My mom came out on the deck to find me, and some zombies heard/saw her and ( Read more... )

This is a map of swine flu cases in the U.S. There's been one death so far, in Texas. Roll over the states for more specific information:
www.msnbc.msn.com/id/30435064

I don't believe I posted about the first one, but in the past couple of months this is the second time a dream I've had involved rape (me being raped, that is).
Here's what freakydreams.com said:
"To dream that you have been raped, suggests a sadistic expression of sexual desire. You may be expressing an unconscious desire to be violated, conquered ( Read more... )

...that I met and had some sort of actual relationship with Jesse Lacey.

WHAT?!

I didn't watch any TV, wasn't thinking of Brand New...in fact, I studied for my Sensory Processes test and then went straight to sleep.

In the dream, I was at some kind of bar or something with my sister, and I was walking out when I saw one of the other members of Brand ( Read more... )

I think about luck a lot, in terms of my own experiences. I wonder at whether it's really luck or maybe something else. Some people would say it's more blessing than luck...some people would say a lot of things. But the bottom line is, I think I'm incredibly lucky in just about every area of my life, and I don't really understand it ( Read more... )

Before anyone reads this, I want it to be known that I don't want to be given compliments just to make me feel better. /disclaimer

So, for the update on how I am:

Nothing's changed much really. I haven't gone out or anything, haven't met any new people. At least 60% of that is a direct result of my own choices. Damn my conflicting desires.

I quit ( Read more... )

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I've been way too lonely and depressed lately. I'm going through the bottom of the curve in terms of my moods, though I'm managing to remain relatively perky/goofy some of the time. It's just been a long time since I've had the chance to be interested in a guy and to interact with him. I'm starting to feel very...undesirable...unworthy...un-likable ( Read more... )

I woke up and typed up a note in my phone describing the part of it that I remembered. I'll try to make sense of it and impart the story ( Read more... )