"I had a dream last night, and it looked just like a dream"
I woke up and typed up a note in my phone describing the part of it that I remembered. I'll try to make sense of it and impart the story...
Okay, there was a lot more to the dream before the part I remember...something about me having a ring (like the one my sister gave me but just silver, I think, and bigger), and I had given my dad a matching one.
In the dream, I woke up and got on msn.com to read the news stories, as I sometimes do, and there was an article about a girl who had been attacked and had a bite mark on the top of her head and one on her right forearm. The fake name they gave the girl to protect her privacy was "Priscilla".
I started checking myself for bite marks and saw that I had a lot of them, mostly from my own teeth. I found two that didn't match my teeth, though -- one on the top of my head (this one was very deep -- a complete impression of someone's teeth, had bled a lot but was now clean), and one on my right forearm. The ring I had that matched the one I had given my dad was gone.
I went to my mom's room and she said nothing at first about anything having happened to me. You know how photographers have a bunch of backdrop screens in their studios, and they can just flip one over or slide it up to get to the one behind it? Well, my mom's "headrest" was like that, and she was going through the screens. I think I mentioned something about an attack at this point, and she said the guy had woken everyone up the night before. I asked her why I was attacked and she said that I got in between him and my sister and niece, so I had been attacked 'cause I protected my niece.
I went into the kitchen where Abi (my niece) and Kristen (my sister) were, and I rushed to Abi to pick her up. I had a towel on my head to cover the deep bite marks, and Kristen made fun of me for it. I asked how my hair would grow back. Then she made a joke about the fact that I was attacked because I was protecting Abi. My mom and Kristen made it seem like they were saying, "Well, if you hadn't gotten in his way, you wouldn't have been attacked," completely ignoring the fact that, in that scenario, one of them would have been attacked in my stead.
I'm not sure if the attack in the dream included rape, but I think that when I went to bed last night I was remembering how I used to be convinced that the day I lose my virginity it will be taken from me as opposed to freely given away by me.
Okay, there was a lot more to the dream before the part I remember...something about me having a ring (like the one my sister gave me but just silver, I think, and bigger), and I had given my dad a matching one.
In the dream, I woke up and got on msn.com to read the news stories, as I sometimes do, and there was an article about a girl who had been attacked and had a bite mark on the top of her head and one on her right forearm. The fake name they gave the girl to protect her privacy was "Priscilla".
I started checking myself for bite marks and saw that I had a lot of them, mostly from my own teeth. I found two that didn't match my teeth, though -- one on the top of my head (this one was very deep -- a complete impression of someone's teeth, had bled a lot but was now clean), and one on my right forearm. The ring I had that matched the one I had given my dad was gone.
I went to my mom's room and she said nothing at first about anything having happened to me. You know how photographers have a bunch of backdrop screens in their studios, and they can just flip one over or slide it up to get to the one behind it? Well, my mom's "headrest" was like that, and she was going through the screens. I think I mentioned something about an attack at this point, and she said the guy had woken everyone up the night before. I asked her why I was attacked and she said that I got in between him and my sister and niece, so I had been attacked 'cause I protected my niece.
I went into the kitchen where Abi (my niece) and Kristen (my sister) were, and I rushed to Abi to pick her up. I had a towel on my head to cover the deep bite marks, and Kristen made fun of me for it. I asked how my hair would grow back. Then she made a joke about the fact that I was attacked because I was protecting Abi. My mom and Kristen made it seem like they were saying, "Well, if you hadn't gotten in his way, you wouldn't have been attacked," completely ignoring the fact that, in that scenario, one of them would have been attacked in my stead.
I'm not sure if the attack in the dream included rape, but I think that when I went to bed last night I was remembering how I used to be convinced that the day I lose my virginity it will be taken from me as opposed to freely given away by me.