Confused and tortured in a spinning rage. Torn and broken feeling the end drawing near. What's this pain for when nothing is gained? Fighting still for something I will never have. Why do I lay here and think about it? I keep falling farther and farther back down. Will I ever get back up to win again? Questions still not answered while time is ( Read more... )

I had an update that was several paragraphs long. It detailed many things in my life. From my childhood to present. Mainly it was me being my normal self and complaining. Then I erased everything. I don't know why I did. I don't know much of anything anymore. I need answers to questions that haven't been asked yet. I think that was in a song once, ( Read more... )

I never write in here anymore. So if you want the latest on my pathetic life, check this out.

http://www.xanga.com/lovelessandcoldhearted

GAH! Why can I never stay happy? Geez, everytime I'm in a good mood, see beautiful people and have a fun time...some freaking butthead has to come by and screw it up. THANKS A LOT! GAH! and why do I have to be so freaking emotional?? Why can't I be a real man? Geez, is that too much to ask for? Oh yeah, I can lift washers, dryers and frigerators by ( Read more... )

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FEELING GOOD BABY YEAH!!! FEEL THE LOVE OR HIT THE FLOOR BECAUSE I'M FEELIN GOOD UP IN HERE ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in a while, and I haven't been talking to anybody really that much lately...except myself, in a way. I've been taking some time to do some thinking. Some really serious thinking, the kind that changes your life. Ya know? Some of the things I thought about were like whoa, seriously. I'm not really sure what I want to do with my life ( Read more... )

I want to feel something, emotionally, that I haven't felt in a long time. What it is that I want to feel, I cannot say, but I need it badly enough that all of my existance yurns for it. I believe that even my faith is tied into this, as it grows weaker with each passing day I have to live without this feeling.

Oh my gosh, all I can say is that last night/this morning was so crazy...*coughs*

Stategy and Tactics
You scored 76 distance, 73 forms, 42 strike, and 49 grapple!

You seem suited to medium chinese internal arts like bagua and tsing-i. You may also do well in chinese animal named styles.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:


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You are a
Social Liberal
(66% permissive)

and an...
Economic Moderate
(56% permissive)

You are best described as a:

Centrist

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