at least i took care of one thing that's been needlessly hanging over my head for far too long ( Read more... )

this is the first time i've left one of these conversations without even a glimmer of hope.

i guess that's kind of a good thing.

but it doesn't feel good.

not good at all.

i need a hug.
so desperately.
but i have no one to hug.
there's no sympathy.

yay for liz ( Read more... )

i am a horrible person
and i can smell disaster
i don't want to fuck up
and end up with people hating me
or me hating them
or hating myself [more than i already do]
i'm not ready for this
and i'm not sure what i can do

if only i could just disappear...