i remember paris with distinct clarity. 17 year olds are impressionable, and i was no exception as i wandered the Louvre, jaw slightly askew, just another tourist looking for stories to take home ( Read more... )

can you really wake up the next morning and decide that it would be better this way? i know its complicated and scary, but i didnt know it was so easy to erase. i want you to know that i have faith in you, even if you dont, and i love you too. so this is hard for me but i am trying because i want you to be happy.

ok, so first of all, i kick ass. secondly, britt and i went out saturday night and had the best time. for a handful of reasons, we went alone. since everyone was in their mid-twenties (i think the avg age was 26) it was a different kind of fun and we fit right in with surprising ease. ill put pics up as soon as i figure out how to make them less ( Read more... )

there is already an obscenely large xmas tree standing tall in south coast plaza. hallmark stores are playing christmas jingles and businesses are one-upping each other on selections of green and red decorations for homes. santa waved at me from a his perch in the window of a store yesterday, and its still october. irritation that people are ( Read more... )

so tonight i was sprawled sideways on my bed flipping thru channels and i came across the infamous "Britney & Kevin: Chaotic"....and ya know what? after seeing it i can agree that she is actually a really down to earth, dorky kid...but who wants to see a superstar picking her nose and making dumb faces at the mirror without any makeup on? the ( Read more... )

"Henry Chase is 'The Assasin'- a Wall Street figure alternately feared, loathed, and imitated (poorly, he'll tell you) by those who cross his path. He'll lie, seduce, betray, manipulate- all before his 6 a.m trip to the gym. Whatever it takes to stay on top in the boardroom and in the bedroom ( Read more... )

i wish i had a sailboat. the thought of drifting in the ocean on a day like today, where the sky blends into the water and a soft drizzle muffles every other sound and magnifies little things like your own heartbeat, holds an inordinate amount of appeal to me ( Read more... )

what power there is in three little words.

"to be loved for what one is, is the greatest exception. the great majority love in others only what they lend to him, their own selves, their version of him." -goethe

i have had this foggy, dragging ache in my head for a few days now. im pretty sure its both emotional and physical because i havent been sleeping well. practice is saving my sanity right now; i dont know what id do if i didnt have those few hours each day to devote completely to something that takes my mind and body away. its so nice to see the ( Read more... )

my drinking days are numbered. i got a lot more than i signed up for. ive never spent so many consecutive hours curled in the fetal position. i didnt throw up but this business of feeling like i could at any moment is getting old, as is the severe dizziness and this monster headache. and the fever. maybe ill die in my sleep...thats not such a bad ( Read more... )