man...why do i build stuff up in my head. no matter what it is...or who. i get so fucking excited about what hasn't happened or who i will meet one day..and when it doesnt happen the way i planned or wanted....i feel broken. i feel like everything is wrong. it is. today i am sad for something that never happened. i am sad for something that can ( Read more... )

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE ( Read more... )

I haven't updated this thing in forever! in fact..i think reading it is incredibly embarrassing. i couldnt figure out how to go back and erase some of the really old ones..so dont judge me! I haven't really been doing much..just hanging out..drooling over boys....going shopping too much..and wishing i was travelling. Mike Lunsford is moving in ( Read more... )

tonight was lots of fun...i now can play black jack with the best of them. the tarot lady said i should go out on a limb and ask out the person i like out..but to take it slow ...and in the end she will teach me that i am stronger than i think..that is funny cos i will never ask anyone out..i am way to scared for that shit. i cant wait for spring ( Read more... )

life is like knives. not good. too much work. not enough life. too much ugly. not enough rest. someone needs to come and organize my room for me. i have too much crap and not enough room. life is confusing. for real. i miss my kitty. i miss my david. i miss being comfortable in a place. i like it here but it isnt home. i am thinking ( Read more... )

my uterus is defective...i hope everyone will love me regardless. sad times. i had a freak out attack after playing 4 hours of mariokart last night. it was that or the blue cohosh. i sorta wish i went to the show last night. wanted to meet the punk rock lesbian. haha. i just need to stop liking the girl i like now. cos it aint never gonna ( Read more... )

today was very fun..i went and lobbied with KFTC for the new tax justice campaign. we only got to talk to a few of the representatives but i still feel it was worthwhile..we have 3 more months of lobbying to go too. everyone seemed really nice and supportive of tax justice but you cannot trust politicians. people smoke all over the cap building ( Read more... )

wow..i havent looked at this in forever.. not fun to read the ol livejournal. i am doing a lot better than i was before. my hate for k has diminished. lots of other more interesting stuff has happened tho. i have been doing a lot of cool social justice related stuff..and working..and thinking of applying to berea..and being in love with this ( Read more... )

yesterday felt so weird. i ended up working late for celeste cos she was sick..and that was fine i need the money and i wanted to help her but i just felt like shit yesterday. i just kept having awful thoughts yesterday. they were so persistent too. it sucked. after work i went and hung out with elizabeth for a bit. her new apt is really nice ( Read more... )

i have had fun lately....things have been good but still felt bad. thursday i saw the gossip. beth ditto is amazing. we danced til it hurt...lilly gave herself whiplash dancing...ha.. el guapo was pretty amazing..and that one girl in second story man caught my eye...and she has a pretty voice..i must see the gossip again...it wasso fun. we went ( Read more... )