anyway...so my livejournal thing is always realy depressing. hmmm..i guess i never write in it when i am happy. which would indicate i am happy a lot cos i don't write in this thing much. but i am not really happy most of the time. oh well, sorry so depressing. i would tell an inappropriate jesus joke now but that sort of stuff doesn't travel ( Read more... )

yeah...so i have been incredibly emotional lately. i suck! got old dreams swimming around in my head. having dreams about pointless shit. i don't want to remember. anything. well, i just want to remember the sound of my dad's voice but i am losing that. he smelled like cigarettes. i love the smell. so i am sitting here now in this public ( Read more... )

ok..so i suck. i am never going to be happy. i have figured out why..so now my pain is not aimless. i need to move. i really do. i have so much floating through my head i can barely breathe. get fixed or die! feelings are lame!

today started out as one of the worst days i have had in forever. i spent hours crying and not even melissa or charity could talk any sense into me. then, magically the day was rescued and i cried b/c i was happy in the first time in i don't remember. i feel like 2 large weights have been lifted. i am gonna have to start getting my uncle x-mas ( Read more... )

i love my friends..the past few days have made me happy. i am going on 3 trips over the next 4 months! yay! i miss a lot of people tho..you should all call me cos i am bad at calling people.

so yeah, i am at my friend lilly's house. she will prolly be alseep forever. i hate it that i always wake up so goddamn early. she is moving to seattle in a month. i am incredibly jealous. she is trying to convince me to move away too. i could totally join one of those programs and have health insurance and get to be away from here for a year ( Read more... )

nothing is right. i need for everything to change. soon. who wants to run away with me?

i feel really fucking sad today..i am the fucking degenerate! i swear to god there is something wrong with me. not normal.

i think i am a waste of space. i wanna go see mirah on october 8th..someone should go with me.

mike lives with me now..and it is super fun.:-)