i am trying harder. i promise. sometimes my brain get out of hand. i can't help it. i'm working on it though. i have my reasons for freaking out the way i do. i just can't talk to you about them ( Read more... )

i'm tired of having fucking meltdowns every other day. one day i am happy and totally solid, the next i am ready to drive my car off a goddamn bridge. what is causing this? i find myself wondering if its just me or my medication or some external force. i need to change something before i lose it. my emotional stability is out the fucking window ( Read more... )

natalie and i discovered urbandictionary.com today ( Read more... )

i can walk again. yay for me ( Read more... )

i hate dogs. no, really. i have cleaned up dog piss three times today. holly just totally pissed on my new rug. a few days ago, her and zelda chewed the corners off the new rug. this morning, i spent ten minutes trying to get zelda to go outside, but she refused. i closed the door and walked back into the living room to find her squatting down, ( Read more... )

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i hate my life today ( Read more... )

i'm going to keep posting this so i can continue to keep up with it. it makes me feel good to see how well i am doing.


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oh and....my harry potter book will be here on saturday!!!

someone should take the tv away from me. it is sucking out my soul. i actually watch dawson's creek every morning that i am at home and awake. i was at union jacks one night with my friend beth and a few other people. some idiot guy came over to our table, so incredibly drunk, and tried to get beth to make out with him. however, beth is not really ( Read more... )