its sad that i resort to my lj when things go wrong and im not feeling 100%.
i thought i always had someone to talk to when times get rough.

ughhhh idk. i just feel so... alone and unhappy on the inside. but on the outside im showered with love and soo happy. idk how i really feel. im so confused about everything. i wish life was easier.. i need to ( Read more... )

today is a day that i feel like i just want to cry. nothing can ever go smoothly in this pitiful course we call life. i know, by all means, that life isnt about it going the way you foresee it to be. its just, so many other people have it way better than me. and i wish i could be so different.

i got a message from a girl who was concerned, more or ( Read more... )

so... happy new year ( Read more... )

i'm so dissapointed in myself.
seriously, can i be any more of a fuck up?
im so mad for liking him, and taking it for granted when i had it.
now i'm pretty sure i wont get the chance to be with him again.
got my PSAT scores back today. they were pretty bad.
if that was the ACT, i would have gotten an 18.
and like a 1270 on the SAT.
thats gonna get me into ( Read more... )

know that; when she hurts you, i'm sad ( Read more... )

sometimes i just want someone to care.
someone to make me feel better about myself when i'm having a shitty day so i don't go over the edge.

i feel dead to you.

so i dont feel good. but i'm wondering if its that i just feel so badly emotional if thats whats making my physical pain ( Read more... )

there are few people who i would live or die for. there are few people i am 100% honest with. there are few people who i'm completely comfortable around. he's one of them. i dont know why. i hate to admit it, because i just recently have, but i'm head-over-heels for him. its pointless, i know. i do so many things to try to hope he'd feel the same ( Read more... )

fuck vain girls ( Read more... )