I seem to have forgotten who I am. don't feel like me anymore. hoping maybe school tomorrow will give me normality again. I need to stop being so damn lazy and I do care that I have a gazillion tests coming up but I am not doing anything about it. meh

It's just another day in paradise ( Read more... )

I just realised that it is 6 weeks to my 18th birthday. thats like huge because for reasons I won't go into its always been this big deal. Now it seems pretty small. Weird. This thing I have been waiting for for what feels like forever, and now it feels meaningless.

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I have been feeling so much anger recently that it scares me. I look in the mirror and I don't even recognise the person I am anymore. I can't stand to be around my family for more than a few minutes at meal times, I have withdrawn from my friends into this little bubble where none of them can touch. Amy is the only one I have confessed the anger ( Read more... )

I'm not speaking to Mam ( Read more... )

I am updating for the sake of entertaining Amy although I have nothing of any relevence to say since well I see her and talk to her all the time. So here goes my random update ( Read more... )

I want to be a writer. no secret. so why can't I write a single thing that is any good. I mean seriously, my lack of talent is actually depressing me at this point. okay so i can string a simple piece of prose together but nothing that is any good or actually means anything to anyone. why des it have to be so hard? loads of people i know are ( Read more... )

I feel like I am losing my best friend. She doesn't know about my eating disorder, and I know that she has problems she is not talking to me about. its breaking my heart.

my stomach hurts, I am sad for some unknown reason, I feel like crap coz i should be out with Jo tonight to celebrate with her but i just am not up for it and i feel liek a shit friend because of it. you would think i could put my own crap aside for one night to be her friend on the night of her results. i mean wtf is wrong with me ( Read more... )