im leaving! on a jet plane really don't know where i'm going yet maybe nyc then to a gathering then the faire or just the faire i want it all but you cant always get what you want.

sean brandon tristan and i went to LBC and stayed at amber's house. good times. sean and i went venice and walked around i went to this vendor and got a very hippie skirt for $10! its so great. it like flows and stuff. we picked up "splif" i got a container for my uncle. brandon just got his truck painted and his friend mitch was following and well ( Read more... )

im going to quit my job i've never had a job i didn't like before. its so lame. grr. its okay cuz the fare is starting on the 16th 605 and 210 for anyone who may read this journal. all 1 or so of you. its kick ass. they made a special short counter just for me. yay! i got to spend the night with my sean i'm so happy best easter ever, kinda. in a ( Read more... )

im working for the man now. i don't like the man. the man doesn't like me. i'm too curvey and friendly for it. too blunt and not at entertained by its pretty colors. but i have a speeding ticket. so such is life.

so ya life could be better. i think i need a voilent outlet. i'm so hurt cuz i tried to be a big person and invite sean's gf to the new year's eve party that my sisters boyfriend is throwing. all the boys and drew were so excited when they heard he was having a party. yes there was selfish reasons too, like sean wouldn't come without her and she is ( Read more... )

but even more so i hate people that vote for a politician not based on politics but religion people that vote the way they do because their parents never raised them to think for themselves i hate that people are so selfish. i wish that this country full of people that can speak their mind and say what they want to without persecution would vote ( Read more... )

cliff got custody of my niece today. we had 3 hours to see her before taking her to the police sation to go to her dad. he's an ass and will do nothing but talk shit about us to her. she's flying to new jersey tomorrow morning. i love her i miss her i just want my tiffy back.

i saw the stars...that in it self made me feel like a new person. i'm still going crazy but it seems to be slowing down with the fresh air i got for a whole two days. i'm tierd now i watch my niece all during the week and then go to northern cali on the weekend and work there. they got me a princess stool. painted it with flowers and my name all ( Read more... )

i laid in the grass at a park tonight
it was beautiful but depressing
i ran my fingers in the grass with sean
i commented about how amazing it feels
nature is great that way he responded
it didn't feel like nature though
surrounded by the poisons of society
cars rushing past
lights of the city
so consumed
so busy
forced
empty

i think i'm starting to feel more like an object and less of a person.