getting on my own nerves
so ya life could be better. i think i need a voilent outlet. i'm so hurt cuz i tried to be a big person and invite sean's gf to the new year's eve party that my sisters boyfriend is throwing. all the boys and drew were so excited when they heard he was having a party. yes there was selfish reasons too, like sean wouldn't come without her and she is best friends with tristan, scott's gf and chris' gf, so none of them would come without her and if those 5 don't come well they all cluster that is life. so i told him she could come and she told him no so now i don't get to be with some of my bestfriends...grr. and before that i a million other things bad just happen and keep happening. like for some reason now i am putting my parents out when asking them to take me to the doctors. i'm just so tierd. i want to run away again but what good would that do.