You know what? I do care what happens to me. I care plenty. I just tend to forget that when I'm worrying about other people. I'm glad I decided to go to church Sunday, 'cause the preacher-man gave out some mighty fine preachins. I don't remember the exact message, but it was basically about balancing action and perception. It was about ( Read more... )

How is it that I am capable of such great compassion for others, yet when it comes to myself, I have almost complete apathy? Whatever happened to that old proverb "A man cannot love others if he does not first love himself," or however it goes? Shouldn't I care what happens to me at least a little bit? Shouldn't I care where my life is headed? ( Read more... )

A rare kind of pain has been visited upon me this evening. A kind of pain that I have experienced but once before, and not near as severely. The kind of pain that hits your soul, but is so strong that your flesh actually feels it. But I cannot say that it is not good that it happened, for I have learned from it, and grown as a person. I learned ( Read more... )

Do you ever get into a situation where your brain moves faster than your mouth? I was out at the grocery store earlier today to pick up some milk since we had run out. After ringing up said milk, the cashier lady asked me if I wanted a bag for it. Now, what I intended to say at this point was "I'll be okay." What actually came out of my mouth, ( Read more... )

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You ever slip into a sentimental mood without realizing it? You know, you don't particularly feel extra mushy, but then you look at, say, an early birthday card from your grandma you got in the mail today, and even though it's sealed with sappy Christian-themed cartoony goat stickers, and even though the illustration on the card is a little cheesy ( Read more... )

I've been using this mood icon a lot, lately.

Well, Lex and I had a rather meaty conversation last night. Rather a tough consistency to it, but it was necessary, and it ended up being a good thing. Long story short, I'm a lazy fuck and that needs to change. I think too much. Thinking is good, but when it eclipses action, that's bad. I've been trying so hard to psychoanalyze myself that I ( Read more... )

Love... that's some crazy stuff, isn't it? A long-distance relationship is a really weird place to be, emotionally. On one hand, there is a clear and everpresent problem whose resolution would vastly improve the quality of the relationship. On the other hand... umm... there's... ... well, there really isn't much in that other hand, actually. Or ( Read more... )

... ever been so in love with someone that you can't feel good about saying "I love you"? Does it ever leave you feeling just a little empty because it just doesn't do your feelings justice? That's a weird feeling ( Read more... )