this week has been horrible.
my car just died today.
i cried.
not because my car died...
but just because this week has just been a terrible mess.
alex and i apparently have an icecream date tonight
to cheer me up
he's so good to me.

plus...
my two best friends
Mandy & Cate
are pretty much the most amazing best friends.
they couldn't fix my car...
but Cate ( Read more... )

i fucking hate cancer.

Sunday I got home from Camp Woodstock in CT for the Northeastern Spring Leaders Rally. As i expected it to be, it was amazing. This rally i met even more people than the one before. It was so much nicer to be outside and the camp was gorgeous. I felt like i strengthened so many bonds with people and I made brand new friendships with others. When i ( Read more... )

it's bittersweet. I didn't really notice how much the end of this year means to me. i mean i've been counting down the days to get out of King Philip since I was a freshman. ive always hated it there. but, i stuck it out there and while i stuck it out, i made some memories along the way. i guess i owe that school something, i mean i grew up within ( Read more... )

sometimes i miss people.
like jessie.
i just feel like we both hit a bump.
we were on two different pages.
and at two different places in our lives.
i wanted her to move forward with me.
but she had a life already.
and mine fell apart.
sometimes i can be selfish.
but i am only human. 
i am allowed mistakes.
i can only hope things go back to normal in time.
i ( Read more... )

happy easter.
i hope you all enjoy this gorgeous sunday.
i'll be at my aunts.
last two nights have been amazing.
Alex came home from school and we hung out
till two a.m. for the past two nights.
he's such a nice guy.
i'm lucky.
he's heading back to school today from his sisters house.
then he'll be back friday again :)
can't wait!
I'm taking Paul Taylor to my ( Read more... )

last night i found out that i 
am the winner of the YMCA
Youth of the Year Award.
i will be accepting it in May 17th i believe.
& i have to give a speech.
yikes.

things have been haywire.
to say the very least.
things are falling apart, and finding their place at the same time.
how? i don't know.
Alex comes home in about 2 days from school.
We're hanging out, i cannot wait.
He makes me smile.
I don't have a prom date.
What else is new?
Paul & Mike offered to be my date.
Paul would definitely be a good date.
I just ( Read more... )

Cate,
when no one understands,
i will.
i'm always here.
i love you.
you are an amazing person.
don't ever let anyone tell you different.

 
"It is the nature of ambition to make men liars and cheats, to hide the truth in their breasts, and show, like jugglers, another thing in their mouths, to cut all friendships and enmities to the measure of their own interest, and to make a good countenance without the help of good will."
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