i have been neglecting my journal but here is an unfinished story that i wrote...if you have any suggestions please comment ( Read more... )

as you can see...i am practically dead...
i died.. a new life begins...i try to reach to past memories. i grasp some old loved ones...but i am still dead...while others go on without me. one day we will betogether. resurrected in heaven. that's what i live for.

what have i become?? a lazy pig.  no need to explain my stupid actions that got me into a mess with that bitch HANEY. (HAha...shannon knows what i'm talking about) anywho...i will soon be free but still suffer the consequences...pti...a psychiatrist...well really that's not TOO bad.  anywho...here's a poem

"withdrawed"

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We will miss you!

I wasn't there when they burried you so i just wanted to say that Jewel, Tex, and I will miss you so much and we'll remember you. I hope i will see you again someday. 

from blank to stressed. not the right word but i should be zonkers. my black and white cat hath crawled away. sick he was and now sick and lost. tex would not lead us to chad, his brother. we are panic stricken and fearing the worst for him. weeping is the start of this weekend ( Read more... )

lunch feels like kindergarten. picking flowers and pretending you're throwing rice at people is not considered that much fun. mondays should be banished. especially for cement zealots..(in other words, drug fiends that are recovering they're incredibly immoral weekend)..friday coming up... an opportunity of a foofooraw has arised. mawhahahaha i'm ( Read more... )

sometimes you start to wonder. who out there is really for you or against you? drugs or people? having fucked up relationships that hurt you or feel chronic emptiness all the time? sometimes i wonder why i constantly do things to myself that i know end up causing harm to myself and even others ( Read more... )

awaiting schoolbooks and indentions made in my head and arms...last night. my intentions were of hatred and hurt...deceiving people. forgive and forget is what they say. does that make you weak? i'm not going to deny you anymore. i can't go on with all this venom. making potions not poison.