Im tired of being treated as a last resort. I wish I could go back to the old days, the innocent days, the ignorant days, the happy days. I wish I could hate you, wish I could be bitter; I wish could forget what you smell like, forget the feeling of your head on my finger tips, forget the weight of your big coat around my shoulders and all these ( Read more... )

im kinda new to LJ and im a total idiot when it comes to how to even operate this damn thing. (give me time, ill learn, i promise) because of that my ettiquite sucks really bad, so i don't know if im being a jack ass or not. my friend mailed me a bunch of icons (long story, but theres a good reason why i uploaded them, lol) and i don't know ( Read more... )

my eyes are burning. under my bed are 3 boxes full of letters -- one for everyday that i've been away, two for everytime that i thought of him. despite it all, i cannot stay angry. i simply love him too much. come back??

Finally after years, no a whole lifetime, of diligent searching my destiny has been discovered. My end has come before me. While in pursuit I had created my own little make believe world which changed the hopeless reality of an endless flow of black coffee and cigarettes to sunshine, daisies and gummy bears. So long have I spent on this god- ( Read more... )

just some stupid blogthing quiz but this is rediculously accurate. mine's first, my love in michigan after me. god, do i miss him......

Your Life Path Number is 11
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I lay awake on my bed staring at the clock. It is the wee hours of the morning and though I am exhausted to my very core, sleep does not come to me. As I gaze, the only sound is that of the second hand as it slowly makes its way around the face of the old clock, the advancing of each moment passing into cemented history, forever sealed away, ( Read more... )

I have a secret place where I can hide -- protected -- from the harshness of the elements of this life. It is not a house or a store, not a building or an object that has become so dear to me ( Read more... )

I sat alone, many things troubling me, many things weighing on my mind. As i sat, pondering in desperation, I fell in to a state of deep concentration, my steady downward gaze fixed on nothing in particular. Suddenly there appeared to me a large phoenix flying around above me, the warm rush of wind from her fiery wings tossing my hair this way that ( Read more... )

Why can't I seem to fit in? I do not belong anywhere I go. I'm always different, always the oddball, always on the outside. I don't want to be like everyone else, but I don't want to be alone forever either. I search, I explore, trying to discover my niche. I have loved and my heart has been wrung nearly dry. My eyes burn until I cannot bring ( Read more... )