im scribbling my poetry as though art could save a wretch like me ( Read more... )

im in one of those moods. you know the kind...where i want to hit someone or break something. i need to yell and kick and throw things. of course...i can't say anything because i'll get into trouble and then i'll be in a worse mood. its a vicious cycle i live in. the more pissed off i am, the more people ask things of me, the sharper i am, the more ( Read more... )

i can't cry ( Read more... )

i just found this...i wrote it at a slam last year ( Read more... )

i can't even articulate how angry and frustrated and disappointed i am. do people not see the downward spiral we are in? i thought we were supposed to learn from our mistakes...not proudly make them again. not surprising that the large republican rally was playing "sweet home alabama". sometimes, i wish that the civil war had never happened. let ( Read more... )

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i really dont feel like im getting anything out of group anymore at kaiser. i go for an hour and a half every thursday and put myself out there but i feel like im the only one. i miss our old group...with raphaela, emily, deirdre, alex, simon, and heather b. but now heather and deirdre are gone and the two new girls dont make any effort and just ( Read more... )

i got back from santa cruz yesterday. i dont know which i dislike more...camping or my family. i think my family wins that one...cos i like camping without them. i saw sides of people i had never seen before. one of them was harder to see than the other. i feel betrayed and let down. it was really hard to hear and i still dont really know what to ( Read more... )

so i went to the a's game on friday. it was fun. saw kit, chelsea, eric, spencer, alex, kate, matias, and hella other people. good times. then the fireworks. ew. oh my god. they were all red white and blue. and they played stupid patriotic music and would randomly cut to presidential speeches. way to ruin my evening. i stopped watching after i was ( Read more... )

so today i went to pleasanton to pick up this computer thing my friend nathan borrowed and while i was running to the bus, this random ass guy in a suit with a briefcase walked up next to me and goes "you look like a fun girl, how would you like to go out sometime?" and i was like "uhhh...i would...but im 16" and he says "well...we'll wait a couple ( Read more... )