you can never get it out of your head

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i got back from santa cruz yesterday. i dont know which i dislike more...camping or my family. i think my family wins that one...cos i like camping without them. i saw sides of people i had never seen before. one of them was harder to see than the other. i feel betrayed and let down. it was really hard to hear and i still dont really know what to make of it. my eyes feel full of tears but i feel empty and hollow. its like there are no thoughts in my head...but i still cant get it off of my mind. i just want to go to sleep...i dont want to cry. i just need to go away, but it needs to be a place where im not there.

xo melanie