and you take me the way I am.

I've had a bad few months, and a good few ones was well. Dan is still amazing. I love him so much.

I'm spinning out of control a little. In a controlled way. It's all very confusing.

10 more to go.

I am in so much debt, and it just keeps getting worse.

650 in credit cards
300 in book fees
900 in tuition

I need to get it together.

And I seem to be eating less lately. I guess it's just a control thing.

I am so tired. Work is kicking my ass all over the place. Good thing I love it and the people are great ( Read more... )

I haven't updated this in a long time. I guess I never have very much to say.

Brooke is back. Which means I have to fight harder to stay healthy. I just want to give up so badly. I know how disapointed dan would be though.

I wish this could be easier. I guess thats life. Hard.

I hate mother's day. I miss dan.

Dan is amazing. and i love him so much.

Mark and i talked today. he's all sad that he had to go. he said things were just getting good. i am glad he left though. so i could be with dan.

I feel a little bad about that, but not too much. Dan is the sweetest guy.

You said you loved me
And all I could do was cry
You love something
That only wants to die

You told me it’s ok
And all I could do was cry harder
You lied to me
Things only got tougher

You held me closer
And I sighed in relief
You did the one thing I needed
You gave me peace

he said "I Love You"
I said "Thats not fair"
he left.
I'm not sure what he thought i meant.
I meant it's not fair that he loves something that only wants to die.

I am alright ( Read more... )

So I haven't written in a very long time.

I guess I should.

Dan is amazing. I love him so much.

I guess I am still messed up. I am getting over it though.

I am dropping this semester and focusing on getting better and working.

I love my job. Being lead cashier rocks. Mostly because I can be a bossy bitch.

Life is so good. I have a great boyfriend, Dan. He makes me so happy. He is so sweet... He makes me smile ( Read more... )