Happy b-day Gea baby!!

I dont have cancer.

WOOOHOOO

I find out tomorrow if I have cancer. That sounds so weird... I might have cancer. It hasn't sunk in yet, and hopefully it won't have to. I don't want to miss school for dr appt and all that.

I Don't really feel anything right now. Just kind of blank.

I had my biopsy tuesday.

I get to know if I have cancer in exactly one week from today.

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I am fucked up.

Too many boys... need to slow down.

I really like Jeff, he's so nice. Brian is in love with Jessica, and Josh is just a jerk.

Way too many boys. It's all so complicated. Plus Brooke doesn't like Brian and me together. I have to respect that.

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I have arthritis.

this sucks.

Ana whispers softly in my ear
She tells me secrets that no one can hear
Just four more pounds
Just four more until I fade away

She says this quietly
So no one else knows
It's our little secret
I can't tell a single soul

And no one sees
Not even me
That As I fall apart
Ana is the one in control

My head is full
I'm drifting
Into an abyss
Don't come and find me there
I want to be alone
I need to feel myself
Heal myself
Be whole
My body is getting heavy
And I'm losing control
My vision is blurry
Make these walls stop spinning
And let me go