i've been having some trouble coming to terms with my being single at the moment. and although i have a couple of interested parties, i don't know how to proceed with any of them. i don't know if i want to proceed at all. it's frustrating ( Read more... )

she text messaged me this evening ( Read more... )

“My mind ballooned with nervous fear. I looked at Pip and for a split second I felt as though she was nobody special in the larger scheme of my life. She was just some girl who had tied me to her leg to help her sink when she jumped of the bridge. Then I blinked and I was in love with her again”.

things that make me smile.

changing Mushu's water is always a chore that i put off. i watch the once clear aqua playland turn foggy. i watch the water level decrease to several inches above his bowl's blue marble bottom so that his pink plant peaks out at the top. the thing that is most upsetting to watch is Mushu not swimming his usual path when he wants to "play ( Read more... )

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it ( Read more... )

the family reunion was "interesting" to say the least . . .

things i learned (or reaffirmed):- ask questions about the planning if your mom is hosting and she hasn't told you anything about everything or else the blame will be pushed on to you if any little thing goes "not as planned" (even though the initial planning was WAY loose anyway AND you ( Read more... )

i really miss Amy. some days it feels like i'm getting better. some days it feels like i'm getting worse. giving and taking, it feels like i'm right back where i started just a few days ahead. it's frustrating ( Read more... )

it was on my 2008 Resolutions List. among many other things . . .

but i'll follow through with this. i feel like i was "better" when i wrote my thoughts and emotions. when i made them exist physically through words.

i'm having a difficult time with Amy. but i'm alright.

Your fingerprints are on my being. Your smell dances with my air. You are indelible.

it's been 6 months.

i really feel like it's been so much longer and this will last forever.

i love Amy so much.