I had made myself forget. Everything that i felt there. - Is this what i do? No wonder ive never ever come to terms with it, and no wonder it's lead to so many of my issues now ( Read more... )

 Ok, well i think maybe its time, and best for myself if i actually get this out of myself. Im absolutely sick of having these fucking dreams all the time ( Read more... )

I dunno what to say. I dunno where to start. And I'm quite sure that this isnt going to flow with any coherence at all, because to be honest, my heads just racing in every direction, spinning and spinning uncontrolably, and I cant make it shut the fuck up. All I can do is turn it into white noise, a constant screaming in the back of my head, trying ( Read more... )

I love him so much ( Read more... )

I havent been able to get to sleep at night ( Read more... )

Oh, and just on a further note just to get this one out of the way [and keeping in with LJ tradition]

Fuck you Andrew, & Fuck you Lee.

Oh, and I found the fucking originals you cunt.... So much for the hacking. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU.

'Isnt he looking old'

I'll be back.
And I wont care.
I wont care.

Not at all.

Well, I thought I should go ahead and post something early into the new year, maybe as a little bit of a review of the past year, and some insight into what I'm planning for the next. Not that anyone other than Mike reads these things [SEE, you get a mention here!!], I just do it as my own personal exercise. I do enjoy coming back to these and ( Read more... )

So, yes I realise how absolutely stupid this might sound, and yes i realise that its also amazingly fast... But I'm actually in love. Like really, actually in love. Which to be honest is amazing by my standards. The fact that ive not even really been able to like anyone for going on Two whole years, for this to happen. Immediatly no less ( Read more... )

So, a while since the last post ( Read more... )

 Still unable to feel any affection for other people ( Read more... )