have you ever felt like your life is spinning out of control? or that your life has gone so out of control that you cant really remember the last time you were happy? (and i am not talking about the 5 minute happiness (i.e. rocking out in your car to your favorite song, while people stare at you); i am talking about the general happiness that only ( Read more... )

i feel so crappy right now.. like nothing is really wrong with me or my life.. like everything is going to be able to work itself out and everything will be fine, but its like i cant get over all of my problems. i have felt like this for a while and i can not figure out if i am depressed or what. i just dont feel like me anymore ( Read more... )

okay so i suppose it has been a while (according to azure), but i have just been to busy or to lazy to write. I have figured out, though, that i only do write when there is a problem that i can not fix. so I suppose that there is a problem now ( Read more... )

*sigh* yesterday was davids last day of work for a long while; he is going off to Sam and leaving me behind. (not as if we even had a relationship or anything but ya know...)i am going to miss working with him soo much, he just made working with him a fun experience. it never felt like work b/c i loved spending time with him. it is like for me he ( Read more... )

wow... it seems like forever since i have written last... i am trying to keep up with these things but it never seems to work.. well lets see i suppose you would like an update ( Read more... )

Well i am back from my amazing vacation in mexico. I dont even think that i can explain the experience that i have had...it was that great. picture this: blue waters, sandy beaches, palm trees, drinks,clubs, my own personal waiter.. oh it was what i had always pictured it to be; trust me i did not want to come back. BUT i had to come back to my ( Read more... )

hello! i have always been really bad at writing in journals and actually keeping up with it, but i have a feeling that this one will be different (or at least i hope so). lets see my day... i worked today and wasn't that a painful experience, but i survived it. barely. i was on drive thu orders today and really the only good part was that azure was ( Read more... )