hm.... nick found out that i liked rebecca... he just pulled me aside and was like "you like rebecca don't you?" and i was like "yeah, shes cool" and then we went back to the stairwell.... and then he pulled rebecca aside..... hm.... im still wondering what he said to her.... anyway.... it was electric guitar day in guitar class... heh... too bad i ( Read more... )

today was better....... i suppose.... nothing too bad hapened...... but then nothin good happened either..... oh well......

yep, thats right, i had a very shitty day today... just like everyday.... i hate this.... oh... and it seems clear to me now that rebecca doesn't like me anymore (if she ever did...).... i guess i could've expected as much... i mean no one really gives a shit about my existence anyway.... i only have one reason to be alive really... heh... and ( Read more... )

eh.... i decided to go to the stairwell anyway today..... i suppose it was better than being alone..... oh and rebecca doesnt wait for me in the morning anymore :( ... oh well.... no one has ever really cared to see me... i mean... i really like her... but i struggle with the fact that she prolly hates me... like everyone else does.... so... i ( Read more... )

hehe no idea whats up with my subject i just couldnt think of anything.... anyway.... i was kinda depressed the whole day again...... i dunno if im goin to the stairwell tomorrow..... i mean, nobody even knows that im there... i really only go for the hell of it.... heh, and to see rebecca... shes really cool... but she didnt wait for me this ( Read more... )

well... this weekend sucked... like every other..... oh well...

heh..... its so nice out today....... the weather is like...... perfect....... but theres nothing to do and its a weekend..... which means im going to do nothing for two days..... i cant wait to get back to school..... now doesnt that sound scarey? i bet.... heh, i dont want to go to "learn".... i just want to go to see people....

well.... my day was alright... i guess...... i was still depressed in the morning... just even more than usual...... i didnt bother going to the stairwell..... no one would notice if i was gone anyway..... and i didnt bother hiding my sadness..... no one really cared.... till after 1st period when rebecca asked if i was ok.... and that she was ( Read more... )

damnit! i had a shitty fucking day! and i was so fuckin depressed...... but seriously... if i was gonna kill myself id make sure to say bye..... not that anyone would really care... but i would anyway.... damn... now that im not as depressed im all pissed all of the sudden..... damnit! too many people fucked with me today....

i cant take this anymore........ why does everyone hate me so much?........ what did i fucking do to deserve this?....... im trying desperately not to kill myself..... nobody wants to be around me... or talk to me... or anything... nobody cares.......