I'm socially retarded. I haven't made any friends here, except the ones i met at work. But I can't hang out with em cause they're always working... So for the past few weeks I've been sitting at home alone, trying to keep myself busy. School starts tomorrow, and I hope eventually I can meet some people there, but I really don't know how. I don't ( Read more... )

I'm 20 years old. EEK. Thats weird. My birthday was ok, didn't do anything i had planned on, but it wasn't bad ( Read more... )

Here I am sitting in our new apartment, just furnished today. We got it the day before halloween. Its so nice and peaceful. No fighting in the middle of the night. No deflating air mattress, sleeping in the freezing ass garage. A nice warm place where Mikey and I can come home to after work ( Read more... )

Tomorrow's Mikey And I's one year anniv. But it won't be anything special. We have to work. We have no money for presents for each other. Nothing. And Jen went to the hospital this morning. She had a nervous breakdown... I can't even start to explain how hard that was to deal with ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here sick at home in humboldt. I don't like this. I would much rather be working. Being sick sucks fat cock. I didn't go to work yesterday either. I just want to make money so Mikey and I can get our own place! He stayed at work while I went home, its lonely here all alone. There's nothing to do... and about 3 and a half hours til Mikey ( Read more... )

I absolutely hate to admit it, but my biggest fear is to be alone. Sometimes its nice, but only for a little while. If I'm alone for too long I go crazy ( Read more... )

I care about this boy so much. Its not even in the romantic sense. I see where's he's coming from, I understand how he feels. Sometimes it seems like hardly anyone really cares about him except me, bob, and adam. Everyone else is too caught up in being self centered, trying to get what they want, they don't realize or care what they're putting him ( Read more... )

I wish I could write all my thoughts down as I'm laying in my bed falling asleep every night. Thats when my brain stirs the most. All these philosophical ideas that only run through my mind as it prepares to shut down for the night. I prove points to myself and make perfect sense, not just some delusional thoughts strung together by some druggy. ( Read more... )

Fuck. I'm 19. Birthday was great:) I got bud and booze handed to me all night long. And I got some cool gifts from the ones i love most.

Started college on monday. I wasn't nervous. This inner-calmness and understanding I have makes everything seem on a level plane, everything is of equal importance. I don't worry about things, where's that going ( Read more... )

Thizzed yesterday. I couldn't stand just haven't them in my purse and not taking em. I really want to take em with Bridgey, but yesterday would have not have turned out like it did if we were sober. Turns out, snorting that shit makes you feel fan fucking tastic. Wish I had something other than yellow pistols, but whatevers clever ( Read more... )