Fuuuuuuck
I'm socially retarded. I haven't made any friends here, except the ones i met at work. But I can't hang out with em cause they're always working... So for the past few weeks I've been sitting at home alone, trying to keep myself busy. School starts tomorrow, and I hope eventually I can meet some people there, but I really don't know how. I don't even know how I made friends in the past. They usually started talking to me and we got along and hung out more. But I have no idea how to start a friendship with someone. Hell, I really don't know how to keep one. I've lost so many friends in the past years, and I don't know why. For some reason I just distance myself from people overtime, I don't even mean to. Like Ashley Russ, I really miss her and I wish I hadn't stopped hanging out with her before she moved. And I still regret what I did to Hannah, I swear to god it still pops up in my mind everyday, and it still hurts. I really liked her.
Luckily I've kept a few, like Bridget, I don't know what I'd do without that girl. And Mellissa, I just started talking to her more again. Its hard to keep in contact with people far away, since I hate talking on the phone.
Blah, I guess I'll just keep on doin what I'm doing, and hope some friends come my way soon, I'm lonely. I've got Mikey, but he's even more anti social than I am. We need other people to hang out with thats for sure.
Luckily I've kept a few, like Bridget, I don't know what I'd do without that girl. And Mellissa, I just started talking to her more again. Its hard to keep in contact with people far away, since I hate talking on the phone.
Blah, I guess I'll just keep on doin what I'm doing, and hope some friends come my way soon, I'm lonely. I've got Mikey, but he's even more anti social than I am. We need other people to hang out with thats for sure.