i know i didn't get it right the first time. but i would have tried so hard for you. i can't blame you for not having faith in me, because i can never actually say how i feel. maybe if you had given me more time you'd have learned that. i wish i could say that you did nothing wrong, that it was my fault and i wasn't worth it anyway, but that's not ( Read more... )

going to a restaurant by yourself is weird.  i will probably never do it again.  i mean maybe a really desolate place but not clarke's at high brunch time there were too many people and it was making me nervous and i couldn't even eat everything i ordered ( Read more... )

'i miss/love/need the girl ( Read more... )

 the dead thing on my roof isn't a bird. it's actually some type of rodent. a small mouse i believe. there is also a dead squirrel hanging from our transformer on the power line. it got struck by lightning two weeks ago ( Read more... )

after unpacking and cleaning i had a few hours of freedom. but i'm working at 8 tomorrow. stab me ( Read more... )

school ended for now. i got a C+ in Am Government and a B+ in 2D which really pisses me off. still waiting to hear about my english grade ( Read more... )

too much is going on. kinda wanna die. i have the meales. yeah, thats right. THE FUCKING MEASLES. everywhere. AHEM and yes i mean everywhere. whatever. susannah and courtney moved out so we don't have to deal with them for the last week thank god. they did take the tv and microwave and toaster oven, which i will miss.  but now i have finals and i ( Read more... )

omg. justlooked at the shittiest apartment with chiara. and the sadthing iswe are probably going tohave to live there. are neighbor downstairs would be an old shaky man named bill. it was SO HOT. i was in there about 10 minutes and i almost died ( Read more... )

not having friends at college sucks a nutsack. it's like eighty degrees out or something and i'm sitting in my poorly lit room waiting for my mom to call me back. i can't believe i'm coming back next year. i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it.

as if this hasn't already been the slowest, most depressing year of my life so far, listen to this bullshit.

first of all it was shady and low of courtney asnd susannah to decide to get an apartment together and start looking before saying anything to me or chiara. but yesterday susannah, after being gone all day, tried to wake me and chiara up from ( Read more... )