i've waited for so long
lately it feels like too long

tonights the moon's exactly in half ( Read more... )

big john died. he had a heart attack in his trailer, he was two years younger than my dad. if you're in a biker gang and you die they put your casket in a glass box that says "last ride, going home" an haul it after a nice hog from the home to the cemetery.  he was a character. now there are even fewer. what the fuck ( Read more... )

so i failed a class this quarter and i was already a little behind which i didn't tell my parents but now they know and i'm in a lot of trouble.  i've been looking for a job for a month, but looking lazily.  i don't like going anywhere because i don't want people to see me. i came home to my parents house for the past week and i feel so stuck. most ( Read more... )

i forget what its like to kiss. sometimes i just want someone to hug me. the idea of cuddling freaks me out. it seems like youd be suffocated or something. maybe if people didnt hate me i could figure out what that stuff is like ( Read more... )

i wonder if i ever really will

I just saw Bob bryar at caribou coffee. i was down the street at the clark and wellington one and i was outside smoking. i mean no i wasn't. and round the corner comes this guy and girl. he was smoking and so they stood outside for a minute and when they turned he looked right at me for a second and at first i wasn't sure cause he was so hairy but ( Read more... )

shit

people break my heart and don't even realize it. i've made a lot of mistakes and if i could change everything i would.

well that worked out fucking beautifully. i don't have class again until january but i'm getting on a train at seven in the morning and going back to lakeview. i will ignore my old boss' calls, i will get a new job.  i am never coming back. my mom told me to get out of the house. well here i go.  my roomate will be gone until janurary too. fan ( Read more... )