so I was at work waiting for some drywallers to leave so I could lock up.. I started thinking about de and the couple of problems she's been having lately. I ended up eventually thinking about the problems we had. I realized that I was forgiving about a lot of stuff for a long time and she just expected me to be. I don't think she really ( Read more... )

reminded me of someone and our situation from my perspective ( Read more... )

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so I was drunk last night and after everyone left my house I ended up calling de. mostly because I called her drunk the night before and just wanted to make sure I didn't say anything crazy. some guy answers saying hello.. I said hey is de there. so he's like "well who is this".. I said "I'm her ex".. before I can say anything else he's like "what ( Read more... )

joe bailed on me, again. we were supposed to go hit some bars tonight and he decided that he didn't want to. I was actually looking forward to it the whole last half of this week. I called up dusty to see what he was doing and he said he wanted me to meet up at his house. I told him I was going to take like a hour long nap and then come over. I ( Read more... )

well I came home a bit buzzed last night.. I went online and ended up seeing some stuff that put everything in perspective.. I saw de saying to her new guy that she loves him and even used my own line "you make me smile everyday".. romance isn't her strong point so I guess she needed to get something to say from somewhere.. I figure she does this ( Read more... )

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I can't sleep again... I wish I had someone to just hold onto.. my mom is worried about me.. i hate that... I called just to say hi because it's been a while since i talked to her.. she kept asking how work was going.. I eventually told her that I felt like I was stuck in a dead end job making 10 bucks a hour. she then asked me if I've been hanging ( Read more... )

some guys at work were sitting around talking about how they've cheated on their g/f or their wife.. my mind couldn't help but drift to de, and I started thinking about things. I would have never cheated on her. I always tried to be honest with her and never tried to manipulate her, even though I could have to get more of what I wanted. people seem ( Read more... )