I have to see Bailey tomorrow. Well, I dont have to. She sent me a lanconic message saying only "I want to see you" and I ethusiastically told her I could see her tomorrow.

Maybe she's going to kick my ass, maybe she's going to kiss me...either way I almost died to hear her say it.

Now there is the issue of...should I even feel this way?

I guess I'm infamous again. That's great. I don't care. I dont want it, I dont want her, I dont really want anyone for that matter ( Read more... )

As for right now, I got nothing. I am numb.

Why you? Oh, God...anyone but you. Take anyone from my life but not you.

Women. I like women and women exclusivly. there it is...it's out there. bam.

Now uh...how do I find women? who like women?

I'm learnin' stuff. I've been thinking about why I am such a chamileon...I guess because I always have been. Duh, right? But my parents let me do whatever I wanted, never told me to, and apart from abuse I was left to my own devices. Like I was locked in a white room with magical toys and I could play with whatever I wanted, the only consequence ( Read more... )

Funny how I still relate to the same stupid TV show as I did sophomore year.

You'll get along...the pain that you feel can only be healed by living.
You've got to go on livingI know...but I still cant get it out of my head that we were supposed to 'sing to the rafters of happilly afters' and such and such. Forever, you know? Not just for a year ( Read more... )

I saw him.

It didnt help.

Oh god.

I almost typed something really negative and then I thought...

This is going to turn out exactly how I want it to. Much better.

I got nothing...really, I got absolutley nothing. Except that David, the person who moved out of my house while I wasnt home and didnt leave a rent check, still wont leave me alone. Sam is amazing and is so good for me...but I just dont know about boys. Why do I always date them? And the people in this play ARE deffinativley the most taleneted, ( Read more... )

Could you have atleast been honest?

misconstrued

Why couldnt you have just TOLD me you were looking for someone closer to your age...you know...before you asked to marry me?

One year?? HAH. Theseus did not last one day. Something restless was in the house.

I should have just been thankful for the wonderful boy sitting next to me.
Anyone can ( Read more... )

Yeah.

I fucking figured.

Oh the bright side...my roomate is probabley the coolest ever. Seriously just walked in when I was nearing tears and gave me a WASP pin.

Ahhh...to LIFE!