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I guess I'm infamous again. That's great. I don't care. I dont want it, I dont want her, I dont really want anyone for that matter.
The people I have in my life are quite enough for me. I have such wonderful friends and let's face it, family. I couldn't ask for better, more supportive people and just because the woman of my dreams isn't sleeping next to me doesnt mean I'm not happy.
I'm not ready to let anyone in. I'm well aware that I'm barrying my head in the sand and probably slipping into a depression...but I am happy slipping into it so who can call me wrong? I'm out of control but in many ways, I'm more emotionally contained than I ever have been. I'm make a concious desicion not to let anyone too close right now.
The people I have in my life are quite enough for me. I have such wonderful friends and let's face it, family. I couldn't ask for better, more supportive people and just because the woman of my dreams isn't sleeping next to me doesnt mean I'm not happy.
I'm not ready to let anyone in. I'm well aware that I'm barrying my head in the sand and probably slipping into a depression...but I am happy slipping into it so who can call me wrong? I'm out of control but in many ways, I'm more emotionally contained than I ever have been. I'm make a concious desicion not to let anyone too close right now.