How do you deal?

[biggdaddykai]

Im sure everyone has felt empty before

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[chrizzy_crazy]

its over when you cry more than you laugh.

[biggdaddykai]

i can see the truth in that. but not every journey forces tears. what then?

[chrizzy_crazy]

how the hell do i know. LOL I suck at giving up and making decisions. I think you know when enough is enough. then you jsut leave and then i dont know. something always comes next even if you cant foresee it.

[biggdaddykai]

well thanks for playing anyways.. your conselation prize is you can flash me while onstage tomorrow. >=P I just got your email btw, and as i said i will try my damndest to get my dead ass out there.

[violentred]

Eh, for this, I'll leave you w/some wisdom from The Mexican.

Samantha: I have to ask you a question. It's a good one so think about it. If two people love each other, but they just can't seem to get it together, when do you get to that point of enough is enough?
Jerry: Never.

[biggdaddykai]

thx. i just hope that unlike me, you take your own advice.

[acidflowers]

before Shyla, I always fell back into thoughts that I just wasn't meant to succeed, at anything..

you never know what can happen...

[biggdaddykai]

no you never do know.. but it would be nice if someone would give a hint once in awhile.

i'm drunk so bear with me eh

[chickety_chi]

okay, frequent random (oxy-moron i know) commenter here

Re: i'm drunk so bear with me eh

[biggdaddykai]

thanks for the kind words. i try not to just talk about my day all the time, cuz i rarely do anything of interest to anyone but me anyways. I just try and write down my thoughts if i need the insight of others, or think that my ideas could help or guide someone else

Re: i'm drunk so bear with me eh

[chickety_chi]

i would give up hope of ever having a better (or another) one, until the day i see another one that just totally inspires me all over again. i don't necessarily believe in love at first sight, but i do think that you can realize somebody or something is all you've ever wanted within seconds of making eye contact. there's millions of hondas (not to mention..females! ;D)out there, so it'd only be time before another one catches my interest.

but it's not unhealthy to dwell on it if you ask me. because personally i'd like to dwell on what made me happy in the past, than how sad i might be at the moment. which i know...by most peoples standards, THAT's an unhealthy mindsight.

Re: i'm drunk so bear with me eh

[biggdaddykai]

Its not that im worried about dwelling, even tho i DO have a tendency to do that. Its just that my entire life whenever something to do with emotion or feeling came out, and that classic "fight or flight" moment comes about ive always chose to run. But this time its different. I cant seem to run the other way, nor do i really want to. I was just wondering if conciously there is a specific dividing point i should be looking for, when to decide that enough is enough, and I should just stop trying. See like i said, i have always ran long before it ever got to that point. I never let myself feel anything... i always broke off and went the other way before i really had the chance to. But i passed that line up a ways back this time, so I'm standing unarmed in unknown territory. Its... unsettling, as i put it before. Its not necessarily bad, then again im not sure if its good yet either. Its hard to explain. Most of the people i talk to regularly on here ive either known for awhile, or connect with in some way. Usually to each in a different

[sheslikenoother]

i'm not going to use the word "realize" so... i'm starting to accept that alot of people feel the same way i do about alot of things. i have torn myself from everything i love due to sadness

[biggdaddykai]

OK but what i was asking for was when you know when its time to give up and throw in the towel, not when to give in. You give in when you have reached a goal, you give up when it is, or seems unreachable. But i see your point for the other way.

You dont have anything to apologize to me for. I was never offended, only disappointed that you didnt seem to want help. I was trying to be your friend, and make sure you and nicci didnt ruin what a wonderful friendship you have had. As you can tell right now isnt the best time for me either, but if you even decide you do want that help, im still willing to give what i can.

[sheslikenoother]

...and that's what i need. support. to know that if, in fact, i *DO* need help, it is there...and that there ARE people that actually care about me...despite what i tell myself.

thank you.

-C

[biggdaddykai]

There are people Crystal. I am one of them, and im sure if you look around, and im betting you wont hafta look hard, you will find more. So now you know. And like GIJoe said.. "KNOWING IS HALF THE BATTLE!!" >=)

p.s. I also have "kung-fu" grip. hehe